doubt, lack of confidence, and fear of failure.

Doubt has been very present in my life over the past week. It has been in full force as I have prepared for and taken my final exams...all of which I have to pass in order to graduate. Satan has been busy....I felt as if the enemy has been screaming all week long, "You can't do it. You know you aren't smart enough. You will fail." Although, I felt overcome with doubt and fear....I DID it. I passed. I didn't fail. Although Satan was busy....God was by far even more at work. And God won that battle.

Each night over the past week, I would spend time in my room, in complete silence, studying endlessly until I fell asleep. I would wake up the next morning, scared out my mind, with absolutely no confidence. Doubt had completely taken over my mind. After each exam, I would wait anxiously to find out whether I passed. I was nervous and I had absolutely no faith in myself.

I have come to the realization that worry and doubt have built a home in my life. I don't like that whatsoever...and that home needs to be torn down. I have also noticed that I have little confidence in myself. I hate that. And, I have a huge fear of failure. I am afraid to fail....at anything. I need to stop being so afraid of failing....and just go for it. I need to have more confidence...and I need to believe that I can do anything I set my mind to. I hate all of these things about myself. I want these things about me to change....and I am determined that they will.

By myself, I can't. But with God's help ... I CAN.

I can do anything because God's got my back.

Through Christ....I can do all things.

I know it. I really do believe it....but I need to work on this....and I need to completely rid myself of worry and doubt in my life. I am determined. And I am certain that with God's help, my fears, worries, and moments of doubt will disappear.

For the Lord will be your confidence
And will keep your foot from being caught.

Proverbs 3:26

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.

1 John 5:14

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Philippians 4:13