I cannot believe summer is almost over. I am so nostalgic about this amazing summer ending. It has been wonderful, filled with amazing places, incredible people, and a whole lot of love. As the school year arrives, I find myself scared. Not because I am nervous about school, new classes, and new teachers....but because last school year was by far the most difficult. I struggled every single day and had a hard time finding the energy to make it through each day. This past week, my family and I went to the mall....I found myself getting weaker by the moment, I felt so lightheaded I thought I was going to faint. It is so very discouraging when trying to push yourself, and then realizing that you are not able, and that you need to stop trying to do so much. Especially when at one point in your life, a trip to the mall wasn't too much to handle. I still don't have a diagnosis, but still struggle daily. Many times I don't announce the difficulty I am having, I keep it to myself, determined to keep going...I push myself until I literally cannot take it anymore. The thought of this school year exhausts me. If it weren't for my heart problem, I may actually look forward to school starting. So, I am hoping and praying that I will have the strength and stamina to make it through...without having as many heart episodes. I trust that my Ultimate Healer will see me through.
They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
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