My friend Kasey and I attended the Rascal Flatts and Kellie Pickler concert...before it began, and the days leading up to it, I was filled with so much fear... After all of these health problems I've had, and the scares I've had with feeling like I could faint, pass out, etc. in even the air conditioning -- I was so nervous that I would pass out in the heat especially. It was so hot outside, and I was so afraid that the inevitable would happen. Sure enough, before we met Kellie, I felt awful...I felt like I could have dropped to the ground any second...Kasey immediately told me to sit down, and I bought an ice cold bottle of water and sucked it down. A little later I felt a little better, but it was so scary. I'm so glad I was able to feel better after that and enjoy the evening....I give all the glory to God for that one! He is so good to me...
On the outside looking in, I look fine...I look like I feel great, but in reality I have many bad days. Days where I wonder how I am even going to get out of bed. And like today, it took me until almost 1 pm to get up. There are many days I keep everything inside, and sometimes when I feel bad I don't tell a single soul...but the One who needs to know, knows. Thank you God. I'm so grateful...grateful that when I'm at my weakest, God gives me strength.
So, I guess I could say that I'm doing alright...considering. I'm just living each day and trying not to take anything for granted. I'm doing all that I can, pushing myself as much as possible, and depending on God to get me through it all. And with the help of amazing family and friends, I'm gonna make it.
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