My Plans vs. God's Plans For Me

I've always had this "idea" or "plan" in my head as to where I'm going in life. I plan to finish high school, attend a 4-year college, become a teacher, get married, have children, eventually get my Master's Degree in Education, etc.

I have this plan for my own life, but I'm realizing that it's not about MY plan, it's about HIS plan...God's plan for my life. God's got better plans for me than I do for myself. I have to let God use me to further His kingdom and I want to fulfill his purpose for me.

God knows who I am, where I've been, and where I'm going ... I just need to TRUST that.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

I'm going to stick with God's plan and see just where He takes me. :)

heart monitor...

This morning, after weeks of waiting, I got my heart monitor. I think I am more relieved than anything...the fact that there IS a light at the end of this long tunnel...and the fact that my doctor might be able to figure out just what is going on...is a huge relief. It's scary...but it's a blessing in disguise. I'm believing in God, knowing that He is my Rock. I'm letting Him hold me. God is good, ALL the time! I will praise Him through every storm. One day, I'll know "why" this is happening and hopefully get it treated.

Although I feel like I am too young to be having to wear a heart monitor, and wouldn't wish these symptoms on anyone...I think I've learned to never, ever take anything for granted. The simplest of tasks: walking, going up a set of stairs, standing up quickly, taking a long shower, getting out of a bathtub, walking school halls..... these have become difficult, and I've learned that we just can't take anything for granted because the things that were once easy can become very difficult.

"Sometimes we want God to change our circumstances, but sometimes God wants to use our circumstances to change us."

my Sunday night prayer.

I pray that each week is better than the last.
I pray that I have the stamina to make it through the school day.
I pray that I will feel as best as possible...at least until I am home where I can rest.

Hoping for a good week this week....and I honestly believe that prayer is what helps me get through each and every day.

Have a great week blog followers!

My Momma

Happy Mother's Day to my sweet Momma.

The one who has been there since the moment of my birth.

The one who helped me to grow.

The one who taught me so many things.

The one who walked me into Kindergarten for what seemed like forever.

The one who has cared for me when I am sick.

The one who has encouraged me every day of my life.

The one who has inspired me.

The one who I most want to be like.

The one who sacrifices more than anyone, besides Jesus.

The one who has lived her faith out each day.

The one who has taught me about Jesus, and shown me what His Love is all about.



Mom, I am forever grateful for you and all that you do. You've inspired me to be something more than what I am. I hope that once I become a Mother, I can be at least half as wonderful as you are! You are beautiful and Jesus shines through you. Thank you...for being my best friend and for never giving up on me. I love you with all that I am, with my whole heart, forever and ever.

a mask

In English today we discussed how often times people hide their feelings, pain, and emotions with a mask. We try to cover up our sorrow and pretend everything is okay when really it's the opposite. I am guilty of this, and I am almost certain I do this every day of my life.

As I have said on this blog before, I've been struggling with some health issues. Those who know this often ask me questions like: "How are you feeling?" etc... My normal response is, "I'm okay"...when in all reality I could break down and say, "I'm feeling terrible!" I keep it in, and just try to keep going. I don't know why I wear this "mask" but I do....I guess it is to keep people from worrying.

When I feel bad, I just try to keep on keepin' on...and I try to hide it with a smile.

I know that God will get me through this, I am leaning on my Rock, and letting Him hold me....

living to the fullest.

I've had many people near me lose loved ones this week. A family at my church lost a Daddy and a Husband suddenly in a rare accident. My friend lost her Father this week, expectedly, but still just as much heartache and grief. It sort of puts things in perspective...

Am I living my life to the fullest? Am I living with purpose? Am I treating others around me with the respect they deserve? There are so many thoughts that have come to my mind about life and just how precious it is. It can be gone in the blink of an eye....am I taking it for granted?

My heart is heavy thinking about these families struggling with such losses, the heartache they are feeling.....I just cannot imagine.

Life is short. Let's live it up. Live with purpose. Laugh frequently. Smile often. Love as much as we breathe.

My prayers are with these families.