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I hardly find time to blog anymore. When I'm home, I want to rest. When I am feeling good enough to go places, I take advantage of it. I have pushed myself to get up everyday and go to school, drag myself through the day, and so when I am home from school, my afternoons are filled with homework and rest (or naps.)

Last week was consumed with school and HOURS of endless homework. To top it off, I was feeling horrible! I can only hope that this week will be better and that I will have the stamina to keep on keepin' on.

People ask me, "Are you feeling better yet?" and the answer is No. This is an ongoing, haven't found out the problem, day to day, not getting better over night kind of thing.

Say a few prayers for me.

Learning to Embrace....

I've been to the doctor too many times to count this year, but I finally think we are on the right path. It's been a long road...symptoms that somewhat started last year, but have simply gotten worse (especially after the pnuemonia), and I am clinging to a hope that they will be controlled and treated. I love my new doctor, and the fact that she is willing to do whatever it takes.

I will soon be hooked up to a heart monitor to monitor the episodes I've been having of heart palpitations, dizziness, lightheadedness, etc. My frustration is finally going away because the doctors are doing something to help me.

Your prayers are appreciated while my parents and I still try to find answers!

If anything, throughout all this, I want to learn to embrace my difficulties. No, I haven't had any enjoyment while feeling this way...but I want to embrace the things I am not able to change (maybe one day, but for the mean time...) I'm not gonna go on and on, but here's a quote that applies to everyone and I hope it speaks to you like it has me.

"We want God to change our circumstances, but God wants to use our circumstances to change us."

Easter

"He is not here; He has Risen!" Luke 24:6

My favorite Sunday of the year is coming in just a few hours. I am so excited.


On Thursday, my parents and I attended the Maundy Thursday service at my church. It was a blessing in more ways than one. It was an amazing service filled with prayer, music, communion, and a testimony of a woman's life. The service and the day itself was a beautiful reminder that on that day, Jesus gave us the gift of his body and blood reminding us of His sacrifice. I am so excited, my heart is full and I am filled with anticipation of what tomorrow morning may bring. I believe with all my heart that God will do great things...I pray that those who haven't found Jesus may do so. And I pray for the pastors all across the world: the Pastor at my church, my aunt who is a Pastor, and all the other Pastors as they deliver the Word.

I am thankful. Thankful for the sacrifice Jesus made for our sins. He hung on that cross, experiencing pain no one can say they have, and died so that we may have life. He lived, he died, and he rose again. He IS Risen! He IS Risen, indeed. What a beautiful thing. A reminder that if we believe we will join Him in Heaven. A reminder that death is overcome. A reminder that we are free from our sins and are forgiven. Is that not the most wonderful thing? All because of Jesus...how can we not love Him?

I can't put into words my thoughts and what my heart is feeling right now...so I will leave you with a few things.


I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin (These lyrics are wonderful!)

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say, It is well

Jesus has overcome
and the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
when this darkness breaks to light
and the shadows disappear
and my faith shall be my eyes

Jesus has overcome
and the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb!
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb!

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb!
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb!
You are worthy! You are worthy!
Worthy is the Lamb!

I will rise
when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise....
I will rise....



At The Foot of The Cross - Lyrics

At the foot of the cross
Where grace and suffering meet
You have shown me your love
Through the judgment you received

And you've won my heart
And you've won my heart, now I can
Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross

At the foot of the cross
Where I am made complete
You have given me life
Through the death you bore for me

And you've won my heart
And you've won my heart, now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross

And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross

And you've won my heart
And you've won my heart, now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down

I trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down

I lay every burden down, every burden
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross

These songs speak for themselves! You can watch the videos to these songs, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvrBQL8swLI http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hk7_SBxYSZs .

One more thing, my Mom re-posted this on facebook, beautiful words!
"The greatest man in history had no servants, yet they called Him MASTER. He had no degree, yet they called Him TEACHER. He had no medicines, yet they called Him HEALER. He had no army, yet kings FEARED Him. He won no military battles, yet He CONQUERED the world. He committed no crime, yet they CRUCIFIED Him. He was buried in a tomb, yet He LIVES today. His name is JESUS!! Happy Easter!"