On Monday, April 4th, my Mawmaw, "best buddy", inspiration, friend, and hero went to be with Jesus. I will never forget the moments before and after her passing. I have never been as heartbroken or devastated....yet, at the same time grateful that although we are grieving her loss, she has received her Prize. Our loss, is indeed, Heaven's gain. And God has the final word, not death. The grave is overcome....victory has won.
Nothing can prepare you for the loss of someone you love so much. It's so hard to even imagine life without someone who you've been close to since day one. And then, even when you think you're ready, they're gone... The minute my Mawmaw left this world, the ICU room was filled with uncontrollable sobs by the entire family. I'll never forget looking at my grandmother and realizing she was no longer with us. I'll never forget how it felt.....the heartbreak that she's gone and the rejoicing that she's "standing tall and whole." I'll never forget the look on my grandpa's face after losing the love of his life. I'll never forget hugging my family after it happened. I'll never forget the many prayers that my aunt said out loud as we all cried surrounding my Mawmaw in her hospital bed. And I'll never forget when my grandpa looked at me and said, "You missed school today, but you missed more than that....you missed your grandmother."
I miss her so much it hurts. I am grateful that she finally has met the One she has been longing to meet....Jesus. She was the most beautiful woman of God....and lived out her faith for us all to see. Her love for her family was deep....but her love for Jesus surpassed it. She never failed to encourage, inspire, spoil, feed, love, care, and bless anyone she met. My family knows Jesus because of her.....and she is now standing at the feet of her Savior....
I am who I am because of the woman that she was.
Rest in Peace, my sweet buddy. I miss you. I love you. I promise to make you proud.
