looking on the bright side

I went to the doctor last Wednesday and we still don't have any answers. There will be more testing, more doctor appointments, and who knows what else. I'm looking on the bright side of everything that comes my way. Being positive is the best thing possible.

I am so used to just going....I love being on the go....but let's face it, this has slowed me down. I'm trying not to let this stop me...I can't put my life on hold. I'm also trying not to do too much. Finding a happy medium is difficult.

This weekend has been wonderful. Bring on summer! :)

never ending craziness

Well, my title says it all, no joke.
Lots to do, little time.

Exams are in 7 school days. They are on June 5, 8, 9, 10. Crunch time is overwhelming in itself. Not too worried. I have found the more I fret, the worse I do.

As you know my health hasn't been great, so I am going to the doctor tomorrow. This will be the 7th time since the end of March. Of course three of these times were for the horrible virus I had, but the other four were all related to this...four counting tomorrow. I can honestly say I am tired of doctor's offices, urgent cares, Minute Clinic's, and even the ER. You really don't know what the future holds, but we do know WHO holds the future. Hoping for the best.

Jon and Kate Plus 8 premiere was last night. Tori and Dean:Home Sweet Hollywood premiere tonight! SYTYCD premiere was last week! All my faves!!

That's where I am at, pushing through and making the most of everything.

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place <3

haven't changed my mind

I have always wanted to be a teacher ever since I could remember. Many kids "played school," I was one of them. People have always told me that I might change my mind.... I disagree. Sometimes you get a feeling that God has called you to do something. That's how I feel about working with kids. I honestly believe it was meant for me. And when you are so passionate about something, you won't change your mind. The joy that enters my heart and the smile that is plastered on my face is so unreal when I'm surrounded by kids.
My teacher, Mr. Horne really encouraged my class the other day, and I feel like what he said had a lot of impact on my choice to become a teacher. I think he made up my mind, I doubt it will change. He said "Don't become a teacher if you don't want to stay up late at night wondering if your words and actions had a positive influence on your student's lives." Those words hit home for me. I want to make a positive impact on everyone who enters my life, and if one day I do become a teacher, then students will be a part of my life.

.....and the winner is.....

American Idol-Season 8 Winner: KRIS ALLEN

Wasn't it absolutely amazing?!?! I am more than happy Kris won. He completely deserved it, and has so much talent that I know he will go far. I screamed so loud when Ryan announced the winner....I have never been so happy! It was very exciting to see a Christian who is also a music minister at his church win the whole competition. To be able to play piano and guitar and also sing beautifully is the kind of talent I wish that I had. I wish him the very best!! I will support him and buy his album(s). Outstanding season 8!!

update on life :)

1. American Idol
Who will win???
Kris Allen or Adam Lambert??
I want Kris to win. My sister and I voted for him more than 150 times together.
I am excited for the outcome.
What do YOU think?


2. Blogging
I've decided that throughout the week (since I am normally drained and barely have time to blog) that I will do my best to post once a day. Even if it is SHORT and SWEET. On weekends and during the summer I hope to have long and inspiring blogs. But for now it is going to be simple.


3. So You Think You Can Dance
2 hour premiere Thursday. Who's going to watch?? ME, are you?


4. School
Only 12 days until exams! Only 16 days until summer! School days of course....


5. Weekend
Possibly taking a trip to see my aunt! Yay!


Have a WONDERFUL Wednesday tomorrow! Expect an American Idol blog!

church

All of my life, before I can even remember, I have gone to church. I grew up going to church every week and still do.
Since I have been sick, I haven't been able to go as often as I would like. A couple of weeks ago, I found myself missing church more than anything. I hadn't even been away from church for more than a week or two. But, I missed it terribly. I have gone the past two weeks and have enjoyed it so much.
Throughout my walk with God I feel closer to Him when I go to church and when I worship Him, praise Him, and hear a good message. It's like a weekly reminder of His love, and when I am at church I am completely focused on Him.
I am blessed to call two churches "home." I am determined to attend as much as I can, because its something I simply can't live without just like the love of Jesus Christ.

faith

You may be wondering where I've been. Normally I blog quite often, but lately, not so much.
Since my emergency room visit on March 27, 2009 I have still been experiencing frequent pain in my side, on top of that I have been having horrible headaches, dizziness, and numbness in my hands. Doctors are working to put these weird puzzle pieces together. I went to Urgent Care last Friday, went to my primary doctor on Tuesday, and my next appointment is May 27th.
We honestly don't know how serious this could be, but I know my body is telling me something.
I have had good and bad days, good moments of each day, and not so good moments of each day. I am definitely ready for answers.

I am incredibly blessed and remaining optimistic. I don't want to worry or fret until I know exactly what is wrong, but I do have constant thoughts running through my head....what if, how serious could it be, what could it be? Each time I begin to think like that, I immediately do something to occupy myself. I am keeping faith through it all, I don't know how long this journey could be, I don't know what is to come, but I will keep my faith in my Savior.

As I tell the kids I babysit and those around me who are having a bad day, "Put a smile on your face, make the world a better place." That's exactly what I am trying to do.

I thought I would let whoever reads this know what was going on, it kind of helps too. Prayer is appreciated. Have a blessed weekend. Remember to keep the faith.

camera phone vs. camera

I am highly obsessed with my phone. When I am doing something and have a kodak moment, my phone's camera is there immediately to take the picture. Perfect, right?
Well. No. As much as I love the convenience of it, I can't exactly print the picture with good quality.

So here's my thing, my current camera is really old and it completely sucks.
With my birthday money I plan to buy a camera. A real one. One that's hopefully small enough to fit into my pocket.

That is my dilemma.

I haven't decide which one. I've got 2 months to pick. Maybe my indecisiveness won't get in the way?